In Faith

A Lifetime Experience

Running to or Running from…

Every day we enter into a lifetime experience. We wake up to a new day and it is in that moment, that we make our choice..is today the day? The day we run to or run from ourselves.  Is today the day that I will finally come face to face with my past just long enough to decide that it does not define my future? Most likely none of us wake up asking that question. I didn’t.  For a long time anyway. However, once it presented itself … it was the answer I had been searching for many years. “Run away from infantile indulgence. Run after mature righteousness-faith, love, peace-joining those who are in honest and serious prayer before God.” 2 Timothy 2:22-23

To the New

That answer to the question forced me to look closely at the choices I have made, good and bad. To sit with lies I believed that I wasn’t enough and look them straight in the eye.  To finally understand and let go of  issues that were not mine.To seek the Godly counsel and help for myself.  To stop settling for less. To set boundaries and actually enforce them. To sit with all of the changes that came with letting go so I could know and love myself as the Lord loves me. And to finally accept it. Running kept me looking back, backtracking (I never did master the back skating though I tried fearlessly in middle school..LOL) and allowing the old to linger. There comes a time in every process when the grip loosens, the truth becomes crystal clear, and it’s time to run, and I mean RUN, from the old you  straight to the new you, and falling into the arms of Christ. “Since we live by the Spirit, we must also follow the Spirit.” Galatians 5:25

Then What

That one day you have waited on, you know the one, the illusion, that “it’s gonna be better when (fill in the blank)”.  That day comes and goes…and then what? We are left with none other than…yep..ourselves.  Thus, we stop. We are still. We realize what we have been running after will require another process and another and another. Never reaching a destination. Never a finish line, just constant drained energy, disappointment and struggle from running from ourselves. Our true selves. The person God called us to be. No more waiting…not anymore.  No thank you!  The time is now. RUN! “You are my refuge and my shield: I have put my hope in your word.” Psalm 119:114

No more waiting

The day I wait on is the day the heavens open and I meet the One who has loved me, held me, caught my tears, makes me laugh, brings my heart the greatest joy, doesn’t ignore or reject me, disciplines and tests me, knows what I need, not what I think I want, protects me, leads me, is a great provider and will never leave or forsake me. His name is Jesus Christ. The same yesterday, today and tomorrow. I run to you, Jesus. “There before me was a door standing open in heaven.” Revelation 4:1

The Ultimate Lifetime Experience

I am no longer running from you, Jesus, with my petty concerns of this world but for eternity and the souls that need you. You are worth it. And your word tells me I am worth it. ( Matthew 6:26-27). No other opinion, compliment or promise overrides your love for me, even someone like me, Lord. Forgive me for putting too much emphasis on comparison and past emotions.  My heart rests knowing, today is the day. I embrace I am enough. I am accepted. And to you my friend reading,  I hope you hear that for yourself today.  He is worth it. He is not your Sunday morning, Wednesday night, quick prayer acquaintance…He is your lifetime experience. “In Him you have been enriched in every way.” 1 Corinthians 1:5 To God be the Glory.

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